Praise Him!

Sing to God, sing praises to his name; lift up a song to him who rides through the deserts; his name is the Lord; exult before him!

                                                               Psalm 68:4

 All of my life I have loved to sing.  My soul expresses itself through my voice, and frankly, I don’t really care how I sound anymore!

 A few months back something odd started to happen.  My voice was silenced.  I stood in church on Sunday silently.  I don’t know what happened to the emotions that found their voices in mine.  We went dead, my voice and I.  Neither expressed joy, pain, love or any other feeling anymore.  I shuffled through my life silently, then angrily, then without any will to live.

 I never recognized how related my voice and my heart were with one another.  Without the one, the other had no desire to continue to beat.  There was a heaviness where once lightness and life existed in song.  My voice WAS my heart, expressing those things I couldn’t articulate in word or express in action.  Without music I was a shell; empty, hollow, cold, without purpose.

 Today I sang again!  It wasn’t much and it wasn’t long, and it certainly wasn’t in tune, but it was my soul once again shouting that it was alive and kicking!  Now I need to find music worthy of singing and setting my voice to the task of expressing my heart once again.

 What a blessing God gives us, this ability to make music!  Without it, my very soul was absent.  I almost lost my life because I lost that soul and that will to live.  We need to pay attention to and care for the gifts that God gives us.  He gives them for a reason.  My voice is that positive pathway for my emotions to vent in this world.  Without that voice I am stoppered, silenced, made dumb and frustrated.

 Thank you Lord for your song!  Let me learn anew to sing your praises and sing your passion and sing your despair.  Let me, by singing these emotions, deal with them in a healthy way and communicate with you. Thank you for the silly little love song that got me singing today!  Help me to open the floodgates of joy and emotion that are uniquely mine.

 Praise you for your music Lord!!