What to do With Change?

 I have lived through a year of constant change and physical and emotional battering.  Well-meaning friends have reassured me that these events could be made to be good through God’s love and redemption.  I don’t doubt this, but I don’t find the immediate comfort this sentiment is meant to engender.  Often this assurance deals with the future, and the future is a hard thing to focus on when your world has become a tornado around you.

 My living arrangements will be changing in the near future.  I had no say in this, my illness has made me unable to affect any change in the current situation.  My treatment, difficult at its best, has become complicated.  I wanted to quit – but then I remembered what God has brought me through already, who he has helped me become from what I was.  I conferred with my husband and prayed with my new pastor.  I shot a millionth note to my current primary doc.  I realized that God DOES have me on a path, one that I haven’t finished yet. The simple act of going through with the treatment when I want to run from it, THAT is the victory.  THAT is where my God is going to meet me and bring me to a place I have never been before.  Obedience in the face of fear.  This is a repetitive lesson for me.

 I pray that in this season I am able to make some solid, Christian friends.  I have isolated myself before, but have learned the great benefit of others who will walk the way with you.  Will you?  I welcome your comments, notes, and friendship.  Let’s find the redemption God promises early and often!