A Letter to My Future Self

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

8/14/23

Dear Beth,

I’ve been feeling disjointed for so long. I hadn’t been able to figure out why, I’ve just been telling my providers that I’m doing great. I’m not. I feel like a volcano, dormant right now, but with anger, fear, and anxiety hot like lava inside. They are building up pressure and the crust is starting to crack.

The steam coming through those cracks is a mixture of sarcasm, avoidance, and huddling up in my house.

I’m angry that I can’t do things that I long to do. I desperately want to visit my sister. I miss the fellowship of the church. Why can’t I break the chains that hold me home?

I hope you have overcome or at least mitigated these problems. Let the volcano grow cold and feel the world around you instead. With God’s help, you are more than able.