Author Archives: rolandsmommy59

Thank you Rolling Stones and Harvey Ball! I’ve felt weird today. Off. Some would say it isn’t out of the ordinary, but this is different. I rarely revisit my blog posts but felt inclined to this weekend. Wow. I did not realize that I have been through some of the things I have. It amazedContinue reading “What a Long, Strange Trip it’s Been”

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” ~ Isaiah 41:10 My forehead feels like it is crushing my eye sockets and my eyes are in a slow burn.  IContinue reading “Out of SErvIcE”

Today I am writing to feel.  My heart has stopped working and is a lump of ice.  Because it is ice, it doesn’t feel, and I can go through my days with a smile (albeit a false smile) on my face.  In the meantime, I am becoming nothing but ice, cold and hard.  I pushContinue reading “Beth Got Married”

My brain refuses to process this. When did it become July and why haven’t I been able to find the time to write? Hopefully, I will fix this situation soon!

Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned. Romans 5:12 Ok, I am going to dive in deep today – most likely too deep!  I was sitting at home alone today because my husband has been awayContinue reading “Why?”

I’ve struggled lately with the realization that my illnesses have kept me from being “successful” in the traditional sense of the word. It is frustrating for someone who had always measured success by graduations and awards. Then I took a look back at what I have done and what I have achieved, outside the conventionalContinue reading “My Resume”

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised                                                             Psalm 31:30 I know, it seems like I am writing a lot about my family relationships.   I am sure that this will sound disgusting, but my dad was that last scab holding back the pustule of emotions built upContinue reading “Mother’s Day”

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.   Romans 8:28 I have been at home for eleven days. Most of them with my right leg elevated in a brace. How, you ask, did I wind up in this position. MoreContinue reading “Sometimes You Just Have to Laugh”

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Prov. 3:5-6 I’m sitting here at my computer tonight because writing is definitely cathartic for me and because I need to get the events of these weeks into someContinue reading “Just Throw Them up in the Air”

The Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.  Psalm 9:9-10 I know I said it would be a while before I wrote again, but the Big Emotions have been hittingContinue reading “Big Emotions”