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I’ve learned an important lesson lately, in a most painful way. I think that the essential lessons don’t come easily so that we appreciate just how crucial they are.    The lesson I have learned is that MY OPINION OF ME IS MORE IMPORTANT (TO ME) THAN OTHER’S OPINIONS OF ME.  I told you itContinue reading “Of Splinters and Confidence of the Soul”

I’ve been in the hospital again.  This time I didn’t tell many people, it was humiliating to be asked to stay after doing so much work when I was let out less than a month ago.   Humiliation is painful and can be soul sucking … What will God do with me now?   HasContinue reading “What Advent Means to Me”

I’ve been walking again today.  I went to my favorite park, Borderland.  It amazes me at the variety of trails I can take when going through there, and how my choice of walking buddy can alter what I see, hear and smell, as well as how I feel when I am in there.  Today IContinue reading “A Walk in the Woods”

Today, I am thankful. I am borrowing this subject from my mentor, Glenn Siepert.  You would think someone who had just spent two weeks in a mental institution would have little to be thankful about, but God has a way of turning our negatives on their head and making them positives.  I am thankful toContinue reading “Thanksgiving”

Here I am again, and not quite sure why this time.  My “mood disorder” speaks harmful words to me and I become paralyzed and defeated. I haven’t dealt with “the beast” for over a year now, but it snuck up on me, trying to devour me. It is at times like this that others tryContinue reading “A Bolt From the Blue”

I am on a familiar journey right now.  One I hoped never to travel again in my life, but here I am, a year after defeat facing The Beast again.  For those of you who have not been acquainted, the beast is not simply “the blues” or a sad day.  The beast attacks you fromContinue reading “The Beast”

October 29, 2016 Blessed are all who fear the Lord,      who walk in obedience to him.                                                Psalm 128:1 Obedience – the word usually connotates something hard or distasteful.   Something likeContinue reading “Beginnings”

I am actually moving this blog from another host in hopes that it will get more visibility. I’m writing about my experiences as a mental health patient who also happens to love the Lord with her heart and soul. This has been the difference in my journey of recovery. I felt prompted by God aContinue reading “Hi!”